New Light..

New Ideas..

New People..

New Life.

"Hello everybody. I am leaving today and I want to thank some people. I wouldn't want to waste your production time and this is a quick thank you note. I'd like to thank the following people who have supported me in so many ways possible during my times here. I'd like to thank the following people from the management team, especially Hetal, Bala, Priya, Jayant and Matt for their understanding and support in my transition.I would also like to thank Yeshwant, Sindur, Roshan and Sandeep who supported me in ways possible. They were real angels. I also thank Sujatha, Madhvi, Sangeetha and Yasmin for their support.

I thank Karthik for being my best friend. He is one person close to me who did not ditch me for being who I am.

When I entered this office after a long leave (gender reassignment surgery I phase), all the girls accepted me. I am grateful to them. While majority of the girls were so supportive, there were also some people who were smiling in front of me but were backbiting behind. I think I am more intelligent, bold, beautiful and most importantly more humanistic than them all. Anyway, I wish them the best too. I personally can not say good bye to you all. So I take this opportunity to say goodbye and wish you all the best. Thanks."

Some people asked me why I did not thank Pradeep? Well, that is a difficult question to answer. Well, I saw him telling someone that I shouldn't mention his name. So, I didn't. Still, I don't hate him or have hard feelings.

Anyway, its time to forget everything and move on. I am preparing to fly. Fly in the right direction.

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The next day, 19th August, was the seminar. Professors, students and everyone at the college were warm. In the morning session, I gave them a complete understanding of transgenderism and third gender issues. The students came up with a lot of questions and it made me really happy to know their interests and concern on the transcommunity.

In the afternoon, I gave them a powerpoint presentation 'Trans and Proud' followed by a short film screening 'Achu pizhai'. After this, we had another question and answer session.

At the end of the day, I had broken whatever irrational beliefs they had on the transgendered community. They were very understading and supportive. It was an important meeting for me. A very satisfying one. These students when they come out of the college and work for the NGOs, they knew how to communicate and help the transgender community with respect.

It is one of the most toughest decisions I had taken in my life when I listened to my heart rather than to my brain. There was this game of negligence and ignorance played by my most affectionate friends and it went to the point of explosion. And the explosion was my move. I need to move on and I just can't play this game with them as long as I am here. I need to be away to heal, to raise, to grow and to be loved. I am not made to be ignored. Not made that way. I had to move also because I have been getting offers from my international connections and I see myself as 'someone' in the society in the next two years. I always knew this would happen to me.

I still can't imagine that I won't be able to see him as usual from August 25th. The next morning after my resignation, when I woke up from sleep, the thought that I am leaving him rushed, my throat was dry and tears filled my eyes. I can never forget this guy, my soulmate, my best friend. Days, months and years may pass. But he will always stay in my heart forever. Because we have shared magic moments together that can never be forgotten or erased.

But am I really leaving him? I don't know. I mean, we both live in the same town, probably a few kilometers away, and I can see him whenever I want to. It is not really a seperation, I'd say it is the third chapter of our story. That reminds me of the script I wanted to write based on my friendsip with the two guys. A very interesting and heart warming tale of friendship, love, affection, transition, hatred, seperation and happiness. It may even qualify for a hollywood movie, who knows? Very Original.. hah?

I will be the ME I always wanted to be.

Alex. He is in Strausburg now and I'll call him and giggle 'Happy Birthday' on the 20th August. I will also speak to his mama and papa. High... how exciting! Will he drink beer on is birthday? "Well, a couple of beer mugs? Hah.. Okay honey, enjoy the day. I forgive you. since it is your birthday".