Though we were attracted to each other because of our beauties, we never attempted to explore it. That way we stayed strong and it made us only more of best friends.

This image has nothing to do with my posting except that its a love story between a European guy and an Indian girl :) Ahem..

Our recent trip together brought us even close like never before and I was able to find that he is a Yogi. I, who loves him immensely, can be his soul mate, best friend ("You are my angel, you are my guru" - he says), pathfinder, guide and sometimes his disciple. In my whole life, I have never found any person like him, so deep into spirituality, so affectionate, so divine. He is truly a God's Child. And I can only be his angel to protect. That way, I can be with him always, even when he returns to Germany. I decide to be all these rather than his love.

I am single again. Blissfully.

I live as a female but the problem is when I wanted to be powerful, they label it as masculinity. For instance, I wanted to learn how to ride a bike, but people think its a male thing to do. However, when I wanted to learn how to drive a car, there isn't a comment about it. Is driving a car a Unisex thing? Infact, isnt a car bigger than a bike? And cars are expensive big machines.. right?

Thats the problem in being a female here. The stereotype thinking about femininity exists almost in all levels of society and if a transwoman goes a little off the track, its shocking for people. They tend to get confused and question the identities! But who cares... I have learnt to ride a bike, and its really really really fun!! I learnt to ride a Hero Honda 150CC. Call it a Heroine Honda now..; Yoyo!!

Karthik is one such beautiful being in my life. The emotions and vibrations I have for Alexander, Pradeep, Balu, Aurelio, Rajaveni, Magesh, Hema, Rajkumar is all different from each other. Everyone of them is special and some of them come as breeze and some as fierce waves and scary fireballs trying to sweep me.

Karthik is a crystal child. A star who fell into earth possibly from the lotus feet of God. His introduction into my life was just normal and mellow. Sometimes we had our own fights and never spoke for days. Then when it gets settled, it becomes beautiful and sharp than everbefore and shines with closeness, warmth and affection. A pure and platonic friendship.

Sometimes I am amazed by his maturity and decision making skills. He is a fighter. Thats why I call him Titan. (a person of exceptional importance and reputation. Titan is also the largest moon of Saturn and the second largest moon in the solar system. It is larger than the planets Mercury and Pluto.In Greek mythology, the Titans were a race of powerful deities that ruled during the legendary Golden Age. Stolen from : Wikipedia).

We have perfect balance and equilibrium and he has been there when I needed him. Ours is one of the most beautiful friendships on earth. You can only feel it when you are a Karthik or a Kalki. Like two lotus flowers in a clear pond. Or two swans fluttering their wings in joy and happiness. Or like the Mermaid and the Unicorn.

I think of him everyday though I meet him only once in a month these days. I can never lose him. Karthik, the golden boy!